oh its chinese new year its time for ang pao haha on the eve i pay mahjong and won my sis more then 10 bucks haha when to my aunty house for dinner it was like boring and no one wans to play cards or mahjong.....and today wake up early jus to come to my aunty house haiz... then we played cards i won my father then i lose lots on poker oh my god haha then we played poison ball wif soccer ball then next we went on gambing again haha then its was like quite funny haha off to gamble again hope i will win more money hahaha oh ya and also wish you guys happy chinese new year
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Alawys My Darlin [:
3:54 AM
Sunday, January 22, 2006
So long no blog le lazy ma last sun went church wif my bro was tired but still went in the middle of the serivce i cried dun noe why but suddenly i felt very tired felt like crying during the singing some thing came to my head at tat point of time tat maden mi felt like crying wei said tat i was touch by the lord is this true ? i dun noe MayBe... this week wasnt so gd not so well gt headache and abit flu my whole body like very hot but i didnt get fever then see doc le she say i gt hot gas in chinese which is re qi so eat medicine lox haha this week went to church again there was a australia band it was great i enjoyed myself althought gt a bit headache i didnt cry today but gt the feeling of saddness felt realli tired i pray for my family and especially my sis realli hope she change her mind and thoughts i realli hope she will come home more as papa mama is worried abt her althought they dun show but i noe they will felt very de unhappy when so much thing happen in one year hope this year is a new start and i realli hope tat my family will be like last time so happy together the bonding matters after the service had a small talk wif wei then she gave mi a booklet she wrote for mi was very happy to have such a great friend she has been by my side since i felt so stress and so upset realli mus thx her wei thank you very much u done alot for mithen we pray for each other i pray for my bro she pray for mi and my bro pray for him(her) haha
_~*~_ Lord i pray tat my sis will change her mind and thoughts tat she will come home more often ,i pray tat she will be save , she will change to the better this year. lord i pray for my bro tat he will grow up and be much more mature and able to handle things well and he will be able to find a suitable job after his army and he will be able to get his car licence this year. lord i pray for my parents health ,i pray that their health will be better then the past and they will eb able to take care of themself , i pray tat their job will be smoother and easier and i pray tat our finance will be much better this year.lord i pray for wei tat she be able to have sufficient money for her daily meals and she be able to find a better job as soon as possible.i pray for all my friend tat they will be able to concentrate better this year for their study i pray tat they will attain a better result in their secondary level, 'N' ,'O' level and also in the ITE and Poly level. lastly i wan to pray tat i will be able to concentrate more on my studies and i be able to manage my finance and also my study well. i pray for my friends having O level i pray tat their be able to manage their STRESS as the examination draws near in the name of jesus Amen._~*~_
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:32 AM
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
I have a friend call S...C.... i know him by a chalet of my cousin, during the holidays we use to go out very often wif my god didi and another friend name Andrew we had alot of fun we always shop together, watch movie and also celebrated christmas together we had alot of fun.one day he sms mi a question and then we went steady together for a few weeks i had fun and was very happy being wif him we spent time together suddenly i felt very comfortable in his arm tat i have nv felt before the love tat i have nv gotten before but ever since he left i felt very unhappy and alot of things had change its no longer the same as it use to be we stop going out together we stop watching movie wif andrew and god didi life went upside down now aday when i go out wif andrew and god didi the atmosphere is so different from the past i seldom talk today i went to buy my new sport shoe wif andrew after buying we left he went home himself and i went my way i felt like every thing has change ever since he left althought we unfriend but we are online pals jus tat we seldom talk and i haven seen him since he left how i wish things can go back to the past tat every one is so happy i realli miss those time some times i think i am the one who cos every thign if i have a wish i wish tat they will still be going out together happily wif out mi i rather i be sad and lonely then every body is upset but some times i felt very lonely like there no one by myside i realli miss the past. This song "tian hui" by S.H.E represent my feeling and my mood and my thoughts.
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:01 AM
Friday, January 06, 2006
Todays the end of first week in sch, sch is boring , todays mood not very gd jus feeling low thinking abt my problems and many stuff haiz i'm so tired realli tired for troubling these things some times i wanna forget abt it but i jus cant do it there will always be quarreling between my parents and my mother and sis then my bro treat mi like i am a nobody at home feeling so lonely no one talks to mi onli some times my sis tok to mi. realli i'm dam tired do you guys noe stop treating mi like these stop blaming mi and stop nagging i wan peace pls how i how i hope my wish will come true one day! WO HAO LEI AH! CAN YOU LEND MI UR SHOULDER TO LEAN ON I'M REALLI VERY TIRED HELP!HELP!HELP!
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:23 AM
Monday, January 02, 2006
Oh yeah tml sch reopen le i'm so happy and also so sian happy is i dun need to be at home so bored and no need face so much problem haha sad is sian gt to study le haha haiz today went touching up my hair gt a funny hair cut if see mi dun laugh pls haha i noe its weird as there long and short and is suppose to be a side parting but the stupid aunty went to make it centre now gt to put gel so it will go side but i dun wanna every day put gel it will spoil my hair lox haiz tats why when u see my hair it will be very weird but my sis say its cute but i dun think so la.....oh my god.... today my mothers in a bad mood trying to be nice to her but she gives us this bloody attitude when my sis gave her money she refuse to take and shr said hush words to my sis say wat she not the the one who tang jia so she said give the money to my father then actually tml my sis wanted to had dinner outside wif the whole family so as to make bonding better but my mother refuse and not interested abt it she like realli cares her and willing to give in to my sis but her words and the attiude she give is jus like she dun care abt her i realli dun understand why ? haiz haiz my mouth say i dun wanna care but my hearts tell mi tat i dun noe wat to do to them and it realli bothers mi not tat it dun who noe wat i think they care abt themself she dun realli understands mi i am jus sometimes giving in to her but i hope one day god will ans my prayer she will eventually change nd my family bonding will be better
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:39 AM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Today is the brand new start for 2006 went back to malaysia early morning at 5.30 went to pray for my grand father then came back around 3+ so i quickly pack things and bath and go for a great party at the expo the party was so fun i enjoyed myself i also reach a new year card form my best friend wei she wrote such touching letter to mi tat makes mi wanna cry this is my proimise to u Wei i will nv give up and i will not walk alone as i noe you and him are always there by my side and also pls give mi 11 1/2 months more as i wanna concentrate on my o levels as i wanna get better result so tat i will be able to get to poly thank you so much i promise i try gpoing weekly i'm so tired and hungry haven eat dinner yet lox haiz i shall go and sleep hopefully i will be able to fall asleep thx god for blessing mi