Nothing to do so update blog abt recent stuff.... start from yesterday....sch soccer training mr maran was a bit weird wif all the stuff he use as training like making us run abt to chase the ball...then followed by playing a game where when he shout down we have to hide the ball, when he shout change we change direction, when he shout hit we take the ball and hit any one near by then the last one is chase mean we the senior chase the junior and there was onli four of us mi,charmaine, joan and joanna then another chase 2 which is the junior chase the senior it was dam horrible haha we then play captain ball and another soccer match then we end the training at around 11+ then when to have lunch wif joanna and charmaine then we when looking at sportslink on soccer balls,shoe of all brands and those supporting guards. after shopping i went to coach my gals team teach until i wan to vomit ah...we were choosing a goal keeper but actually i had in mind who but jus wanted to see who is more suitable for the position....then we gt audition of some ppl like jolene,bao chuan and theng boon. theng boon gave mi a surprise the first shoot that some one take was quite hard and she manage to catch....then went home....was realli tired i pack my stuff then i went off to bed early in the morning i wake up at 7.45 then went to bath and change cloths take my breakfast then off i go for sjab activity cum footdrill com training. it started at around 9.05 till around 11+ all of us was so tired although there are breaks in between then after awhile when lwq keep giving us water break when we didnt ask for it, it is like now u go for water break then u come back le after a 4-5 times of turing he sent us for water break again then it repeat again but this time no one go drink water he ask we dun wan drink ah then we say no...then dun noe wat he say i forget le i noe i put up my hand and told him that we all are very tired and our legs are aching and feeling pain...then he started to go behind us toking abt us he say some thing but i jus dun rem le cos i was like starting to angry le...i rem one is he say wan us to think how much have we put in the effort in chinese which is xiang yi xiang ni men fu chu de duo sao and he also say if we join the com then we should put in effort to learn and do it well. firstly i didnt wan to join one is becos robin say there isnt enough ppl and ask mi to join and i am becos of my junior i join one now he like tat say us...and wo fu chu de bu go duo ma??? na ni yao wo fu chu duo sao ni cai man yi neh.....tell mi lah...do you noe i am realli tired every oen is so tired after marching and kicking soccer our legs are aching and its so pain lox i said those to him is becos i noe every one is tired i jus hope that it will stop and let them rest...he said those things which make mi felt it is shooting towards mi....fine am i wrong....when he was saying us i jus dun wanna look in front i look some where else holding my tears not wanting to cry in the squad until he dismiss us i turn and awalk to the toliet after qb came asking mi my leg pain ah...yes its quite pain lah...then i walk to the toliet and my tears is coming down i jus didnt wanna turn back and look i keep walking towards the toliet until i jus break down started complaining to puay gek who came running after mi i cry before i complain to her i jus felt realli tired....i'm realli exhausted there so many things in my mind so many problems....i felt like stopping down and jus stop and not doing any thing i am realli very tired can every thing stop. when i came home i sit down and looking at the tv but my mind is thinking abt things felt like crying i'm tired of my life i felt so tiring gt to care abt so many stuff family,sch and cca every thing also gt problems i realli tired need some one to listen to mi but there is jus no one who cares and no one is there when i needed some one to tok to...theres no one who can hear mi saying my troubles and jus listen to mi and lend mi his/her shoulder to lend on for a rest....i'm so tired already...wanna rest le....i 'm going to burst liek a balloon le.....i jus cant hold it nay longer le....who cheng bu zhu le.....wo kuai yao kua le.... it 12.57 am of sun 19 march i'm shall fall into my dream land le i'm exhausted le...if one day i jus sleep and nv wake up it will be nice as i dun have to trouble any more....how ever hard i do they doesnt appreciate.....i jus find him so biased....last time like this now also like this he nv changes....i wish that there isnt so much troubles and problems i am realli dam dam dam tired le exhausted no strength any more le....off to bed stop here le no words to describe my feelings....bye