Sunday, April 30, 2006
i'm suppose to study now but i gt no mood to study...even i open my book my heart is jus not here to study. i'm thinking abt my godma who is my nanny who has seen mi grown up....she the closes to mi after my parents....i'm worried abt her...she has been sick at first her face swollen but now ok le but she's gt fever on and off so we sent her to the hospital today...doc say lung infection some thing like tat la....before we left she looks better with the oxygen support then jus now heard from my mother tat she's in the ICU sleeping after given a injection so she can rest cause after since she has been sick she has had sleepless nite i think its time for her to take a gd rest but i realli hope she will get well soon i'm realli worried abt her i'm afraid tat she might...
pls dun take her away i sincerely pray....i love her very much
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:04 AM
Monday, April 24, 2006
haha i'm dam happy today... although today last match but most of the senior get to play the whole match....gt hard times to clear de ball although we let them goal twice but we score a goal again then they hard hard times to score cos we keep on clearing the balls and bring it up. there was once where yvonne hit the ball back to our goal post haha think she dream wrong goal post la haha but lucky it went up and did not went in tat give mi and joanna a shock even gwen cos she was the sub keeper haha today's char bdae too we bought her a soccer ball hope she like it oh ya we also bought a cake for her haha think she didnt eat i guess she will throw away haha sad...hmm today's match let mi see alot of ppl improve ppl like jia min scored a goal haha ,michelle indeeed improve too haha but more to improve my heart nearly pop out man...may be should improve the hand first haha after match mi,ann marie,jia min,trish,tamara,ondrea and joanna went to hougang mall walk then end up sitting in mac tok and take photo haha we jus keep toking abt the match today which we dun even take a dam man...today is another memorable day to mi and it is also sad cos i dun noe when i still can kick this type of match le haiz sob sob....i jus love soccer so much i will miss the fun times and the time we train together before and during all these match ......i am so happy hahaha
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:15 AM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
i'm happy yesterday i bought a new water bottle and i am happy that i played better then the last few matches...and it should be my last match le then i realli dun noe when i will be able to play wif them again le...so sad i will miss the time tat we spent together hope u galzs dun forget mi and of cos those who are graduating one. today my mood changes dun noe why i jus felt so tired and i feel like giving up on doing those things le reason i may not have time but tats not the real one. i felt tat it isnt the same any more i felt so left out after the com like we have become strangers le we smile at each other onli it isnt the same i dun noe why i jus felt i'm nolonger in the spirit wif u guys may be the gap or may be its my ownself bah...ithe moment u say those words it jus hurt my heart may be it true bah... i have big mouth....then if it is i apologise to u sorry....some times i jus wanna keep quiet but i jus cant make it i entertain u guys and what i get in return is all ur faces and attitude u all dun listen to wat we say all youy all do is ignore us and it hurts us so much or may be we are jus too irritating bah tats why if it is tat then i will keep my mouth shut and shall not speak so much le wonder why rite? i am realli tired i felt liek giving up but i dunnnoe should i???
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:57 AM
Friday, April 14, 2006
today's celebration and gathering for all sjab members from sec 2, 3, 4, 5 and ex student oh yeah man its so fun in the beginning until i was a bit tired... we played soccer on sand it was difficult man...we play poison ball on land and sea but not every one come haix if every one come even more fun but very hard to find place la we play hald way it started to rain we stayed in shelter while waiting for the rain to stop wif the music on wei qiang was dreaming he was a DJ saying love story but it was nice to listen and lucky he no say mi haha....today vance come lox it was shocking mi and sher still bet he no come but he come dun wan go come down into the sea but in the end gt push down by sher ah...haha then he started to grumble tat he gt no extra cloths and his t-shirt was wet haha then we went to bath and get out of sentosa i was feeling sleepy and tired le...it took a long time to wait for bus then i accompany vance go take bus then until we the vistor departure centre he took bus to habourfront first cos he wanna go home early then i waited for the rest cos they were unable to squeeze into the beach tram haha then we wanted to go suki sushi eat then think too late go kovan eat hong kong cafe then dun noe why change again go pizza hut then the stupid pizza hut then dun allow us sit seperate cos we gt 16 ppl and they wan us sit together then we went to eat at food centre...then i eat finish i was searching for my phone but i jus cant finds then samuel help mi call and i couldnt feel the vibration then the pizza hut manager ans and i went back to collect then i was so tired tat i shared cab wif edmund,chen chen and elwin. back home after i bath again i wash the mat tat i bring there let then sit and put all the bags then it was full of sand lox gt to wash lox no one help mi wash lox haiz so sad i gt wash before i bring home but still gt sands so i wash again lox haiz if not i sure get scolding shall go sleep le last nite slp at 1 after surviving in the boring meeting shall go sleep le
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:22 AM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Start of the week i felt so weird....i miss the last week where we train everyday together...i realli miss those days haha....hmm on mon when i went back to sch for soccer i sit there think of last week suddenly felt like crying i realli miss those days where we care for each other no matter wat we try our best to train hard...i chat wif boo chuan telling her how i feltits hard to find ppl to tell them how i feel som,e times ppl jus dun care who ask i am the only senior nco who realli cares for them but some times in return ppl dun realli treat u well but i dun blame them...i do all my best to help u guys in any difficulty u all have i train hard wif u guys i dun wanna u all disappoint i train u galz soccer i'm sorry we could have win but u ppl jus prove mi wrong nv judge ppl in how they all they may play so well tat u doesnt noe...sorry...but i jus felt so sad tat there may not be such strong bonding wif u guys i dun noe when i realli dun noe now i dun feel like leaving but wat if i have to i realli dun wish..sob sob..tue desmond gt into trouble my dear logistic boy was nearly kanna beaten by some ppl cos he go hack ppls accounts we noe he is wrong he apologised and had to return those things back to ppl then we all trying to help him but dun noe why he is jus finding for trouble heard he gt slap by ppl and today he gt punch ppl i felt tat he deserve the punch for being so hao lian desmond u are wrong and ppl is helping u not to get beaten and here u are tryionmg to cos urself problems by telling ur class yesterday 50 ppl wanna beat u and couldnt beat u cool rite cool ur head arh samuel,terrence,boo chuan,me and ming wei try to help u and u urself taking knife killing urself...pls wake up ur idea haiz...hope u learn ur lesson man haha today in soccer haiz...didnt play so gd felt so sad why didnt they scold mi and blame mi...i noe the last goal if i had help joanna it wouldnt have score haiz.. sorry galz i'm sorry ah pao say i am nervous for the first half but i noe i'm not nervous actually noe whyi jus afraid of being injured again...i dun wanna injured once i injured i cant play any more...my parents will band mi and they doesnt show support at all i'll felt so sad i cry below my block before going up...i felt i could do better but i played so lousy ever since i injured my knee every thing change realli..haizi felt so bad..in the bus when maran was saying us i felt like crying today's performance is realli bad i couldnt accept...i shall practice more to improve my kicking adding strength and accuracy..haiz...will ppl concern abt wat i say..i guess no bah
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Alawys My Darlin [:
5:23 AM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:07 AM
two days before footdrill competition.....
we gt our training until 5+ then went home to pack my stuff for camp then eat dinner then go sherlene's hse to stay over night...we tok and see her pack her stuff while i put the ranks and name tag on my full u...then i sit on the bed using ehr blanket to cover my leg cos i felt cold she thought i going to sleep le haha then while she tok on the phone wif qb i fell asleep then she suddenly call mi i wake up...she ask mi tml i wear white socks or black socks then i couldnt sleep le...haha
one day before footdrill competition.....
we went for macrichie for cross country duty and we were half an hour late haha then we left for duty ....then sum thing happen tat i cant say wat happen....then after the duty we went to qb hse to bath, it was my first time going to qb hse although her hse is abit messy it isnt really very bad la haha and her cupboard i shall not say.... shh....we know can le ...then went to sch to camp after first fall in, we put our bag one side then we took our uniform, beret, belts and boots out first my roll iron our uniform first i iron the skirt and shorts while zhao neng and jolene iron the shirt,sherlene ,boo chuan, samuel and desmond check for the mao mao haha then after some times some of them check for the belts and also our berets were taken to season it. after we finish these we went to polish our boots but not enough time some of our boots not shiny but manage to pass haha...then we gt our footdrill trainingwe did it two times then we went for our dinner yeah.... haha after dinner was rc time the games were so fun we had alot of fun especially the shooting of the grapes from the mouth into a bowl wif cream from a distance haha when its my group's turn and i represent them wei qiang and keng ling pull the table far far away then i try to walk as near then shoot and i manage to shoot in yeah...then we had each group shoot in the bowl same and i help my group to win grapes haha then it was the nco vs senior nco and offciers the nco win congrad haha then clearing up time and then bathing and then going to bed haha before tat we took a pic we all went back to our room...when we were abt to slp elwin sms us the sky is dark good nite in chinese it was so lame haha every oen recieve his sms wat a nice sms haha then i fall sleep le suddenly chen chen hit mi wif her toe i gt frighten and jump up then i couldnt slp until 4+ then i fall asleep
On the day of footdrill competition.....
we gt morning dancing exercise haha it was abit lame but nvm we all dance the ai kang way tat wei qiang teach haha some ppl saw and laugh then we gt breakfast i didnt wan to lose my voice as the competition is near so i eat white bread i ate 3 pieces then we took out our dirty clothes put in st john room then we took our belts, boots, water bottle and berets into our backpack...then we went to bun up and gel up our hair...until it cant even fly haha it was dam neatsome of the boys de hair kanna cut by barber lee haha...then we practices one last round of footdrill then took our full u and off we set off to krangi sec on the way there alot of ppl slp i wanted to sleep but ppl disturb mi haha no la kidding i couldnt slp when we reach there we took our lunch which we near forgotten to take from the aunty lucky puay gek rem haha...if not we sure die of hungry one haha....change into our full u and prepare our things do a final check then we put our stuff in the holding room then the parade start and the inspection started the judge was very strict lox he check infront and behind when its our turn he see terrence ask him wats the two strip haha the judge says tat our attire is very neat then after the parade the footdrill competitions started...we were team five we perform well....gt one bang hands were straight only some gt mistake then the judge say alot to our commander dun noe the judge dun like us bah before and after tok so much haha at the end qb and sher cry before the result then when its time for the result we were all so afraid...when they announce for the 2nd runner up and the mc say its team five were shock and nic also shock and forgotten we were team five then he quickly went up to take the trophy then second place was hai sin and champion was gan eng seng...at that moment tears was already in my eyes then until the end of dimiss which after check 1.2.3.. sher and i cryed immediately then some one came to put his hands on our shoulder think is robin thanks but we jus continue to cry i was expecting a second cos i noe gan eng seng surely win champion one haiz...but losing to hai sin is realli not happy then after that i found tat onli mi, sher, qb and boo chuan cried....we jus felt very sad then wei qiang told us not to be sad abt it i stop awhile and console them then we took pics and went to change back into our pt kit and set back to sch in the bus wei qiang was toking while boo chuan, sher and qb continue crying...i also cried as i felt realli sad thought of having champion or second for my last year in sch we were ask to say wat we wan to say....in my heart i say this is my first and last year taking part in footdrill competition i have nv taken part in any competition before except soccer. i felt so sad when it was my last year and i am leaving le i jus cant bear the strong bonding we have where it was my first strong bondding in sjab in my four years of service...i dun feel like leaving i tok half way my tears came again then i continue saying that we took 1 week to training wif most of the ppl and training the whole procedure and we manage to get third it isnt bad in fact it is gd...that was mny last sentence and there are some things i didnt say out which is u all make my dream come true....then we went to eat then going to wei qiang hse see video of the whole competition gan eng seng drill is dam good mah...the fanci drill is even better they derserve the champion.. after tat sher father send mi and qb home then i found tat i left my hp in wei qiang hse then i ask samuel help mi take home then i took it from him today...i walk around kovan nothing to do shop shop then i decide to make a sovenia for all 21 personal and of cos the commander then i went home and use com until now...we are happy tat at least we won some thing back and WE HOLS ARE BLACK HORSE SO DUN PLAY PLAY WIF US...IF WE WAN WE WILL GET WAT WE WAN....OUR SPIRIT IS DAM HIGH SO BETTER BEWARE OF US WE MAY SUDDENLY JUS POP OUT AND GET WAT WE DESERVE REALLI HOLS SJAB RAWKS....DUN PLAY PLAY MAN.....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
4:30 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
Sch was boring....gt phy test but i didnt learn pro hor....was a bit tired cos was having conference wif bc N sam until 11+ then sleep toking abt qb and 1 april de soccer com....today gt training in fact every day gt training le so good i looking forward to this competition i wanna win trophy back....this is my last year i will zhen xi de....so sad like leaving like tat...haiz...my back is hurting so much dun noe how to survive the next few days....now my hand also injured gt scolded by my mother she say i huo kai injured who ask mi go play soccer...but u think i wanna injured meh....i try my best not to injured le i put in alot of effort in the soccer com but result is injury...and the ref is so bloody kind....they just dun liek mi to play soccer but i jus like playing but u all jus wont support mi....felt so sad i injured u all also doesnt care at all still say i zi zhao de...haiz why why why i jus dun noe why now my back is realli aching like siao man...actually jus now footdrill half way my back already start aching but gt to bear wif it..haiz...NO ONE CARES ABT MI AT ALL, THEY DOESNT EVEN TAKE A DAM....feeling pretty low in mood these few days...in my head there is jus so many stuff...1/4 cca,1/4 sch and 1/2 is family....the most troubling thing is financial now mus buy book again dun wanna take money from them i noe tat there isnt enough money at home gt ot pay alot of things tats why i dare not ask money i dun wanna my father to trouble abt money so i paid alot of sch things my self using my own pocket money and now every month still needa share money to pay the internet bills i noe i mostly i use internet....and u guys gt work i didnt work how am i going to save tat money when ever sch wanna take money i realli gt headache...tats why i decide to quit diving although i realli wanna learn....why u all are jus so selfish....onli think abt urself nv made some thoughts for ur sis....ppl say i have a very gd sis and bro but i dun think so....alot of thigns jus kept inside my heart and u all dun noe how i feel...alot times i cry at nite when u all not at home or when u all are aslept...i dun noe how u all think i felt so tired but theres jus no help....haiz...life is jus so tiring....now i my leg is recovewring le but dun noe why some times walk half way sudden pain but i'm hoping tat my back and my hand to recover soon...jus now watching campus superstar when they sing their last songs lang hua yi dou dou i felt so sad...as i miss the time i and my squad mates spent together in sjab the happy times and especially 1 april 2006 i miss my squad mates haha...tears jus came by and rolling down my face think of the times we spent think tat having to spent together and putting in efforts to the soccer com and the coming footdrill com and also my sch soccer team....thinking when i leave this sch my life may not be exciting any more....some times i wanna stay happy but there is always something tat made mi sad and moody....my mind is full of stuff...i'm felt so sad when my family neglect mi...when they onli care abt themself....its so true man....tong si ren le....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:17 AM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Finally we have been waiting for it, our boys team have won the champion trophy back home....i'm so happy tat our sch beat hai sin yes....we all were so happy sherlene cry, boo chuan cry, thengboon cry, i cry,
elwin cry, samuel cry, terrence cry, shao quan cry even robin break down and cry, wei qiang cry and qian bi cry until vomit haha....the sec 1 & 2 some also cry... we were both happy and sad....happy is the boys team won sad is the girls team lose and also happy because we beat hai sin and sad is hai sin lost to us ......hurray....at the beginning...should be able to win the first match de but haiz who ask mi didnt shoot into the goal when there was penaty kick for us haiz...so we draw then second match sherlene score one goal we were so happy thought there will be chance for us to go into the finals but krangi score haix....during the match one of the player knock mi down and i injured my wrist abit....but the ref nv give yellow card to them and he said some thing to ming wei he say he was kind tat he nv gives us yellow card stupid ref....then we draw the match....after this match ming wei tell us tat we could not made into the finals le tears came i wanted to cry....i felt so sad then walk back to the place where we it and see sherlene crying so i cheer her up and when ming wei came out of the toliet he see her cry he say ok ok i go appeal he hurry down but it didnt work but thx..then ming wei left then we played against gess and we draw again at least we are unbeatable by the champions haha....then we went to rest then go see how the boys doing we cheer the boys and hoping they will not lose they would win.....i'm so happy that they won yes the trophy is back home to holy le....we all were too happy then we took bus back home which is our sch then went for dinner to celebrate then we went home....on the way home i finally break down and cry cos i was realli upsad tat the girls team should be able to win de but nvm....was sad as i wish for the trophy so much then i went home and rest.....could slept until 2+....until now we are still very happy still in the mood of happiness but...my right wrist is injured after the last match when i fall with the gess ppl and injured even more now my hand hurts dun noe how to do work and my back is still aching due to my back injured a month ago...shll go prepare for sch le....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:54 AM