Sch was boring....gt phy test but i didnt learn pro hor....was a bit tired cos was having conference wif bc N sam until 11+ then sleep toking abt qb and 1 april de soccer com....today gt training in fact every day gt training le so good i looking forward to this competition i wanna win trophy back....this is my last year i will zhen xi de....so sad like leaving like tat...haiz...my back is hurting so much dun noe how to survive the next few days....now my hand also injured gt scolded by my mother she say i huo kai injured who ask mi go play soccer...but u think i wanna injured meh....i try my best not to injured le i put in alot of effort in the soccer com but result is injury...and the ref is so bloody kind....they just dun liek mi to play soccer but i jus like playing but u all jus wont support mi....felt so sad i injured u all also doesnt care at all still say i zi zhao de...haiz why why why i jus dun noe why now my back is realli aching like siao man...actually jus now footdrill half way my back already start aching but gt to bear wif it..haiz...NO ONE CARES ABT MI AT ALL, THEY DOESNT EVEN TAKE A DAM....feeling pretty low in mood these few days...in my head there is jus so many stuff...1/4 cca,1/4 sch and 1/2 is family....the most troubling thing is financial now mus buy book again dun wanna take money from them i noe tat there isnt enough money at home gt ot pay alot of things tats why i dare not ask money i dun wanna my father to trouble abt money so i paid alot of sch things my self using my own pocket money and now every month still needa share money to pay the internet bills i noe i mostly i use internet....and u guys gt work i didnt work how am i going to save tat money when ever sch wanna take money i realli gt headache...tats why i decide to quit diving although i realli wanna learn....why u all are jus so selfish....onli think abt urself nv made some thoughts for ur sis....ppl say i have a very gd sis and bro but i dun think so....alot of thigns jus kept inside my heart and u all dun noe how i feel...alot times i cry at nite when u all not at home or when u all are aslept...i dun noe how u all think i felt so tired but theres jus no help....haiz...life is jus so tiring....now i my leg is recovewring le but dun noe why some times walk half way sudden pain but i'm hoping tat my back and my hand to recover soon...jus now watching campus superstar when they sing their last songs lang hua yi dou dou i felt so sad...as i miss the time i and my squad mates spent together in sjab the happy times and especially 1 april 2006 i miss my squad mates haha...tears jus came by and rolling down my face think of the times we spent think tat having to spent together and putting in efforts to the soccer com and the coming footdrill com and also my sch soccer team....thinking when i leave this sch my life may not be exciting any more....some times i wanna stay happy but there is always something tat made mi sad and moody....my mind is full of stuff...i'm felt so sad when my family neglect mi...when they onli care abt themself....its so true man....tong si ren le....