Thinking of making a card for her...had came out with some design ask my mother for suggestion but she didnt reply...pack some of my stuff today...thinking of how to make the card...going to dinner was still doing then my mother scolded mi say i....then she says tat why make card use zhen xin qu gan dong ta...when ever i wan to do some thing like cards or wat ever they will aways in chinese at mi i hated it so much...its hurts my heart is becos i dun noe how to express my feeling so i put efforts to make the card for the person... now i noe why u says tat cos u dun noe how to understand ppl simply say u dun understand mi at all...no one in this family realli cares cos everybody is selfish no one cares abt mi....was in a gd mood but u change my mood i felt so lost...my godma dotes mi alot now she still in icu my heart and mind kept thinking of her. feeling so down i felt not alot of ppl noes my heart perhaps onli some close friends my family cares for themself onli...seriously i dun feel the love at home i felt tat i always very quiet at home i seldom tok cos non of them toks to mi lot...may be its becos i dun noe wat to tok to u all cos u all dun understand mi...tired with some many things moodless cant smile no no is i dunnoe how to smile...i dislike u guys cos she all onli cares for ur ownself...i hate u, u take ah ma go some where of china in the september when i cant even go....i gt sch...i hate u leaving mi wif papa,kor and sis then i will have to do things for them...i hate u dun wanna bring mi along thought u will but i'm wrong seriously i indeed wrong...make mi hate u all...fine I HATE U ALL AND I HATE MYSELF YOU ALL WILL ALWAYS BLAME MI RITE OF COS RITE ALL MY FAULT MA!!!!!!!!!!!