this my second time writing cos its realli this song best describle my day today..."you had a bad day"...hmmtoday was suppose to be happy going for sjab training then theng boon.robin and zhao neng told mi tat we could not march for st john day...i felt so sad wanted to cry but didnt... we carry on training them look at them train so hard...we waited fort eacher to come out then we wanted to applie but before tat when i see their rehearse i felt like leting them the chance to perform cos..they realli train and trys to make it perfect.. and if i applie terrence,bao chuan and qian bi wont be able to be commanders if we dun applie they will have a chance and they realli put in the efforts at tat moment i was thinking shld i applie in the end theng boon still wanna applie but my hearts jus dun noe wat to do so we went then gt scolded by LLL...i hate her so much she realli kpo and realli every thign also wanna care i gt my right to choose wat i wanna do lox... and she is so unreasonable and she gt no ren qing one no feeling at all not a human ah...give her face dun wanna create trouble...miss lee talk well to us and console us saying tat this is not our final year she wan us to think in another way...so we ask if we dun join the parade can we be allowed to wear uniform and she say i think u all better not haiz...every thing also cannot...at tat time my tears starts to come...i jus felt so sad i jus cant control myself from stop crying then i calm myself...then continue seeing the commanders,flag bearers and escort training...gt no mood i went home to eat dinner wif out going wif u guys sry...dun felt liek going home so i stand at the corridor thinking cry again then i wipe my tears and went home..at home also gt trouble..my bro..haix...i dun wanna my family worry abt mi i give them a fake smile...some times i jus cant smile like today i noe i didnt smile much cos i realli felt moodless...while lookgin at them samuel told mi some thing tat make mi smile thx...i noe u all mean gd....is hard to smile when u jus smile...sry if i nv smile...haiz...i jus cant control...give mi a few days and i will get over it... ---ppl i wanna say sry--- =robin,ming wei and wei qiang sry i created trouble for u all...u all had to re think the post and replan the whole thing =terrence,bao chuan and qian bi sry given u all trouble..u all had to take over us and take the heavy load...sorry = to all tat i have given attitude ad bad reply...sry mood change...i'm sry if i make ur day bad too ~*~ sorry guys~*~ ---ppl i wanna thx--- =ming wei for helping us talk to teacher abt the parade thing =wei qiang thx for helping us say abt the wearing of uniform =robin thx for giving mi a chance of being a commander...i realli appreciate and thx for helping mit o fulfill my hopes but its jus fate tat i cant be a commander but nvm thx alot..i realli appreciate it so much =bao chuan,samuel,qian bi,terrence and sherlene thx for the consoling and the kind thoughts ...and i noe u all mean well for mi...i appreciate the help i believe u all can make it grand...gd luck and realli thx for the car and concern = realli thank you for all these ppl--robin,ming wei,wei qiang,bao chuan,samuel, qian bi,terrence and sherlene thx alot for every thing ~*~thank you guys~*~ ~*~U aLl NoE mIe WeLl~*~
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:01 AM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
its a long time since I have blog...jus lazy to blog...have been in camp after the two weeks of remedial in sch...it was slack and fun in the end yet it is memorable....there so many rumours haha like kah meng and theng boon haha... many more...i like the tee shirt the colour was nice nd becos of theanco teethe boys gt punish serverly...hmm now adays we are training forst john day.. its a big and grand day from the pass history...hmm i cant imagine wats life wif outst johnandsoccerbut from both cca i learn alot of stuff...haiz cant take part in next year soccer com le...cos graduated le ma but i'm the team manager and coach for the girls team...we have plans haha....i gonna win thechallenger trophydown but training them hard...girls endure training starting le....hmm sch reopening soon its so sian i jus dun felt liek studing but gt to do so...how i wish to stay rite at this moment haha but cannot be de....life is jus so boring wif out ccas hai but i jus dun like teachers to stop their student from goign to cca when they like to its like as a teacher u dun have the right to stop ones likes and choice and u cant force them to do wat they dun like so dun force us....but i noe they are gd for us but i jus dun like being stop from going ccas camp or sumthing they are jus so irritating haha...last sat i plan games for my junior but there was training for st john day so cancel haha nvm... jus at tat moment i went into the room see wei qiang toking to ming wei so i sat there listening its was senses and the art of talking...he was rite.. i like where he say us our bad points and advising us wat to do and also the gd points but i always forgotten tat but rem the bad ones so i can change haha...after the talk i realise i have gt to look at the bright side of the world andsbe positive always...SMILE ALWAYS.... :) hehehe
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:19 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006
todays performance was so gd i was disapointed wif my performance...haiz...hmm todays mood was actually not bad but then there was a moment i felt angry and sad...i pass msg and they didnt get it and they are suppose to reach sch at 12 told by robin but the guys and some were late i'm also late due to i forget to take first aid manuel for terrence and also i went to buy things but my instruction was fall at 2.15 in half u and bring full u and there is still ppl late and walk slowly the most up sad thing is i said not to wear boots to sch but i still see ppl wear and they came to sch to polish.... i was sad becos wat i said was all rubbish tats why no one respect wat i said it hurts my heart and again from this moment my mind felt confuse and i kept thinking of some things tat bothering mi these few days...hai during the duty i cried silencely my mind and heart does noe where to stand i wanna say it to them but i jus gt no strength to say out...my decision has yet to be made...i hope wat i said to bao chuan, theng boon,terrence and samuel it did not affect them and i didnt create trouble for them...i'm so sorry...so so sorry now how i wish i could lie on some one's shoulder and cried out all my sorrows and troubles ....i'm sorry to those who i have hurt u give u attitude....my moral has been low since after camp.... :'( i cried silencely u didnt noe
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:27 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
i gt lots to say....but i dun noe how....feeling sad these days...i felt negected by my family and also in my cca.....i felt sad problems come...why...she misunderstood mi she jus dun understand mi i gt nothing to say...next...if u all think i'm ur dog u r wrong i'm not ur dog and i gt my own zi zhun de....how ever hard i try...u all give mi faces or u all jus dun even reply mi and wat ever i do u all dun appreciate then dun lox...wait till one day i left and nv come back u all regret...better dun regret XXXX xxx xxx....i'll cant stand any more do wat ever u like.....lots to say jus cant say out haiz...being feeling low after camp...dun wanna tok abt it le....camp is so fun...but it ended so soon....haiz dun wanna say le....