this my second time writing cos its realli this song best describle my day today..."you had a bad day"...hmmtoday was suppose to be happy going for sjab training then theng boon.robin and zhao neng told mi tat we could not march for st john day...i felt so sad wanted to cry but didnt... we carry on training them look at them train so hard...we waited fort eacher to come out then we wanted to applie but before tat when i see their rehearse i felt like leting them the chance to perform cos..they realli train and trys to make it perfect.. and if i applie terrence,bao chuan and qian bi wont be able to be commanders if we dun applie they will have a chance and they realli put in the efforts at tat moment i was thinking shld i applie in the end theng boon still wanna applie but my hearts jus dun noe wat to do so we went then gt scolded by LLL...i hate her so much she realli kpo and realli every thign also wanna care i gt my right to choose wat i wanna do lox... and she is so unreasonable and she gt no ren qing one no feeling at all not a human ah...give her face dun wanna create trouble...miss lee talk well to us and console us saying tat this is not our final year she wan us to think in another way...so we ask if we dun join the parade can we be allowed to wear uniform and she say i think u all better not haiz...every thing also cannot...at tat time my tears starts to come...i jus felt so sad i jus cant control myself from stop crying then i calm myself...then continue seeing the commanders,flag bearers and escort training...gt no mood i went home to eat dinner wif out going wif u guys sry...dun felt liek going home so i stand at the corridor thinking cry again then i wipe my tears and went home..at home also gt trouble..my bro..haix...i dun wanna my family worry abt mi i give them a fake smile...some times i jus cant smile like today i noe i didnt smile much cos i realli felt moodless...while lookgin at them samuel told mi some thing tat make mi smile thx...i noe u all mean gd....is hard to smile when u jus smile...sry if i nv smile...haiz...i jus cant control...give mi a few days and i will get over it... ---ppl i wanna say sry--- =robin,ming wei and wei qiang sry i created trouble for u all...u all had to re think the post and replan the whole thing =terrence,bao chuan and qian bi sry given u all trouble..u all had to take over us and take the heavy load...sorry = to all tat i have given attitude ad bad reply...sry mood change...i'm sry if i make ur day bad too ~*~ sorry guys~*~ ---ppl i wanna thx--- =ming wei for helping us talk to teacher abt the parade thing =wei qiang thx for helping us say abt the wearing of uniform =robin thx for giving mi a chance of being a commander...i realli appreciate and thx for helping mit o fulfill my hopes but its jus fate tat i cant be a commander but nvm thx alot..i realli appreciate it so much =bao chuan,samuel,qian bi,terrence and sherlene thx for the consoling and the kind thoughts ...and i noe u all mean well for mi...i appreciate the help i believe u all can make it grand...gd luck and realli thx for the car and concern = realli thank you for all these ppl--robin,ming wei,wei qiang,bao chuan,samuel, qian bi,terrence and sherlene thx alot for every thing ~*~thank you guys~*~ ~*~U aLl NoE mIe WeLl~*~