todays performance was so gd i was disapointed wif my performance...haiz...hmm todays mood was actually not bad but then there was a moment i felt angry and sad...i pass msg and they didnt get it and they are suppose to reach sch at 12 told by robin but the guys and some were late i'm also late due to i forget to take first aid manuel for terrence and also i went to buy things but my instruction was fall at 2.15 in half u and bring full u and there is still ppl late and walk slowly the most up sad thing is i said not to wear boots to sch but i still see ppl wear and they came to sch to polish.... i was sad becos wat i said was all rubbish tats why no one respect wat i said it hurts my heart and again from this moment my mind felt confuse and i kept thinking of some things tat bothering mi these few days...hai during the duty i cried silencely my mind and heart does noe where to stand i wanna say it to them but i jus gt no strength to say out...my decision has yet to be made...i hope wat i said to bao chuan, theng boon,terrence and samuel it did not affect them and i didnt create trouble for them...i'm so sorry...so so sorry now how i wish i could lie on some one's shoulder and cried out all my sorrows and troubles ....i'm sorry to those who i have hurt u give u attitude....my moral has been low since after camp.... :'( i cried silencely u didnt noe