A call from my junior qian bi...congraduating mi. she told mi some thing tat i have gotten wat i always wanted to achieve...but when i hear the news...some thing is wrong, why i dun feel happy abt it...but i felt unhappy abt some thing tat i jus cant say...or can say i still finding the answer...my eyes are tired...why am i feeling like this...i seriously dun noe...i have gotten wat i always wanted but i dun feel the sense of happiness or is it this is not wat i wanted or this isnt the target i wan...being reflecting this few days tired of smiling cos i realli hate to smile in front of them telling them i'm ok...but i gt to reading my junior blog ..she said i was strong and i ask her was i realli strong...she said tat this...i would have to judge it myself..its mi who decide whether i am strong or not...keep it in always in my mind...i felt tat i am not as strong as i think i use to be...in fact i am rather weak in resolving stuff...especially on such thing in my mind...why...haiz...who will make mi smile so tat i do not need to make a fake smile...i jus have to smile in front of u all cos i dun wanna u to worry...its realli hard to smile...but i gt no choice