well done to all sjab members in yesteday's st john day performance although there's some minor mistake but its alright u all did ur best le especially the sec one.have been feeling blue...talk less in class cos i didnt noe wat to say some times due to some reason...yesterday st john day...was quite happy seeing their performance but dun noe jus felt moody in later the day...being wait fro such long time and there goes the chance...its beyong our choose its the fate...jus felt sad and disappointed wif their attitude but forget it liao...haiz feeling realli down these few days...thinking of wat io shld do...being stop to go stjohn and soccer felt so bored and i felt like i jus cant let go...haiz seriously i didnt noe wat to do...shld i come back? i realli dun noe felt so tired in wat ever i do or organise some thing for them they happy they come they not happy they dun wanna come is this is the attitude then forget abt the competition bah...i give my best shot in training u all and these are wat i recieve...from u all it realli sadden mi...realli realli tired of doing things le...being nice but u all goes like this how u all wan mi to treat u all...or may be i shld let go and change my life...in the past sjab and soccer is my life now...i guess i have to make a decision haiz...wq said sumthing to mi...u cant even control XxXx how to control the corp...this hurt my heart and it give my heart a answer tat i havinmg being searching...may be he's rite i have no power not strong enough tats why or may they there can le may be i shld let go but some ppl say i shld prove to him tat his wrong...but i gt no energy liao...if not u all tell mi wat shld i do....i shld be a evil person <>