hmm another week gone days draw near...gt to start studing le haha it has been 3 weeks le haha dunnoe is a word i like to say sch same boring hmm oh ya thur was isabell and ciyue birthday haha and today is si jin bdae happy bdae to u all...hmm fri gt ptm sian and i knew she tok abt cca ok fine shall not say le not realli tat bad la i jus dun like her to chap on my personal stuff although she mean gd...i jus abit dun like her onli i didnt care...my mother starts to nag at mi le....all becos of her la...nvm 2 more weeks and out of sch yeah 13th oct last day of sch then no need go sch le think go out haha
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:05 AM
Monday, September 25, 2006
boring...life sux...i believe in wat i think and i choose to believe...hmm fri went shopping wif wendy sat went out help my best squad mate then went home abt 6+ nothing to do sian...then jolene 7+ come ym hse use com do project and i miss the show i not stupid too tv series nvm then she went home abt 11+ then i went to slp basically life was jus so boring...sun slack at home then go kovan eat dinner and buy things then go home slack again bored day...today monday school still ok in the morning sum thing hidden in my heart from last nite to morining i worried abt sum thing...lesson as per normal then comes to serious case haha pricipal talk nono shld be scolding session jus becos we didnt do well in our prelims and many ppl couldnt qualific for the pae program for going in to JC...oh pls...who wan go there if i am tat smart i zao jiu study express le.... stupid haiz wat ever i also dun care...ptm and graduation ceremony must come go lox...will they come i i also dun care le...cos i already knew the ans for the ceremony...bored sia...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
5:27 AM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Today...sick no go sch rest and rest hope to be stronger thinking and looking back...the past is jus so beautiful lots of happy and unhappy moments...my life seems to be corrupted...some one ask am i happier in the past or now...my ans is the past... now its seems jus so far away from them...my feeling for this family is love and hatez how ever bad or unfair they treat mi...they are still my family...i will have to endure and walk through life may be is tat every one has grown up lesser time for family...how i wish tat we could be like the malays their family gathering is always so great...unlike us not tat not happy most probably what we ask for is too high bah...but life now is also quite happy life is better...jus always thinking abt money haha financial gt to save haha gd habit life is better as i gt a bunch of very gd class mates and friends like wendy,kel,bell,si jin,yong wen,jing jie,wayne,ben and many more...and also my second family haha ppl from sjab my squadmates,wei qiang,robin,keng ling and all my juniors...life wif them is interesting giving mi a memorable memory of my seconday sch life
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:12 AM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Gonna die le....prelim result is like shit...fail so many nvm...tired every day go sch boring lesson...two more weeks and we do not need to come sch le...but dun go sch also sian...getting sick le...haiz...my math is like shit must pull up my socks le...didnt expect myself to do so badly haix...nvm...life is jus so meanless...ppl ask is singaporean happy...no bah...why becos they need earn money,study and get their targets when they have high hopes the greater the disappointment they have jus like mi hai...so i ask myself am i happy...i will say no... life has been different from the past...but i gonna change to yes having not too high hopes and dun ask too much most probably we will be happier...now i am happy to have wat i have le....not asking much jus let the days pass...say onli ma...guess its difficult but i wanna feel happy in my family its jus not easy...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
5:54 AM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
haiz...finally i see some pass subject...2 onli hope i pass more...but nvm its prelim onli haiz...ptm...wat a wasting of time...not even i say tat...first time ask my father wat time free go for ptm my father say meet for wat going to graduate le...and he say tell teacher very sian dun wan meet...so i say u go call them tell them lox...its realli indeed a waste of time...third time this year le wor... haiz...happy wif my math result although i fail...didnt reallin put in effort in my math paper 1 and i can still get such grades not very bad jus fail by 7.5 marks onli not bad haha shall wait for futher gd news in hope to pass all haha if not ptm will die le...haiz graduation ceremony...will they go...i dunnoe but hoping they go haiz...shall not tok abt it le...i must study harder for o lvl le...hope to get gd grades but it seems difficult but i will try...haiz...shatec...back up plan haha...but dun noe wanna go in study anot...strict there but its ok...ytd nigel came back sch told us more abt shatec...first thing in my mind was the fees....its dam Expensives lox....15k for a diploma in culinary course lox...but there are other choose hmm dun noe shall think after i get my result bah...shall study hard and score for a higher grade so go poly then no need think of shatec cos the fee is realli expensive cant afford i dun wish my parent go borrow from insurance or bank....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
4:54 AM
Monday, September 18, 2006
Prelim over...lesson as per normal le..boring...gt back sci, f&n and english all badly done...haiz..wat to do...did my best le..haiz...another 46 days...to o lvl haiz many whys in my head...things jus change it isnt the way it use to be le...and jus cant go back to the past le...so i'm hoping to move faster to the future bah...mind flooded wif stuff...guess i gt to put it down...promise not to think any more le so i mustnt break my promise tat i have made...falling sick soon..sick and tired man...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
4:44 AM
Monday, September 11, 2006
haiz...my life is corrupted....haiz....life is jus so meaningless to mi...getting worst to worst....lots to say...but...haiz...jus kai bu liao kou...haiz...it will be in my heart till some one gt the keys to unlock....my heart is bleeding no one noes...a wound tat would not heal...deeply hurt dun felt like going home but i have too...going home its like going to jail jus tat here gt com and window...haiz...how i wish u will care more haiz its all my fault i shldnt be here perhaps...u all will onli noe call mi do this do tat then nv do give mi face do le if it goes wrong u all blame mi from small u all onli noe how to blame mi...and u all jus onli noe how to scold every thing also scold...how i wish u were here...walking alone is jus so terrible imissusomuchicanthelpituarealwaysinmybrainandinmyhearticriedtodayasifeltreallisadiwishuwereherebymyside walkingwifmiwalkingaloneisnoteasybutinoeugturproblemsifeltbadaftertellingumyproblemswheninoeuareactually busybututoldmiunotverybusythxdunwishtodisturbudecosubusybutmyheartreallifeltterriblemyheartbleedingijus gtlotstosaybutijuscantsayoutimissthosedaysthxforgivingmisuchnicememoryhowiwishuwereherebymysideirealli missuilikeuicantchangeiwish forachanceidunwishtogiveupseriouslyi'mafraidoflosinguidunwannauleavecosilikeu reallitomiistillbelieveuarenotanastyboyanastyboywontlistentogodswordsandgoeschurcheveryweekdefromherei believeuarentnastyilikethewayuarehowutratmiireallilikeuienjoythedaysihadwifuinoeuarebusywifurdntstuffthese fewweekstatswhyitrynottodisturbubutiwaswaitingforursmseverydayevenifthereisonlionesmsiwillbehappysryto botherualwaysimissurfaceursmileurvoicesomuchibealwayswaitingherealwaysgdluckforurprelimsialwaysprayfor ugodblessuimissualotmissurvoicesosomuchi'llwaittillexamsoveri'llwaitlotstosaytoubutsometimesijusenjoyseeur smileanditsenoughformiwhenuare happyi'mhappytoobutwhenuareupsetibethesametooiwannaseeusmileandurlaughter
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:17 AM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Holiday ending soon...prelim coming..haiz...holiday jus slacking around...study abit but i will study more...SUN... went to collect my phone finally able to use my orange phone but before tat i gt use to the nokia phone le haha then went back to hougang get some stuff done then hurry down to seragoon stadium for agi was going to be late lucky some one reminded mi the time if not i be realli late thx for reminding. waited for the two otc to finish their work at the stadium then we went to kovan eat..was so hungry keng ling and robin brought durian we ate durian after tat...so full after eating...MON nothing done...TUE...went samuel hse play from noon to nite...we watch vcd...she's the man...nice show..played cards and true and dare...WED...went out wif my mother went to amway company get some stuff done then went to shaw centre same another company get some stuff done then went to eat at kfc..haiz some thing happen there but shall not tok abt it haha...THU...nothing happen...FRI...remedial then go tampines mall wif wendy,kel and si jin YESTERDAY is a gd day...woke up worry for someone but nvm then went to meet ming wei together go for work which is public duty at badminton association there see badminton championship double...its so fun...gossip session haha then jolene come we continue talking haha i still think the children de competition is the best so cute the boys can fall and fall haha they slide ah...then 7.30 sent jolene out haha we ask her to go home so late le...we gt our reason sorry...then continue gossiping haha no la jus chatting shared secret too onli he and i noe...haha best squad mate man...long time no talk so long de lox...haha then went back to kovan meet robin for dinner nono is supper haha...in the end decided to go chomp chomp eat...had lots of food and a big cup of sugar cane, robin was nice haha thx ah..cos i hand short ma haha...ming wei was nice too...was dam full so we walk out of chomp chomp slowly then waited for cab sent robin back first, i was suppose to be the last to reach home cos live in seng kang ma...then the driver say my hse first better so ming wei say sent mi home first haha...thx la...robin was so lucky came out to have a free supper haha treated by his juniors...robin where to find such gd junior...haha we noe u stress haha gd luck for ur exam...then went home use com...waited awhile then study abit of math but head was working aching so stop and went to bed thinking of stuff..today was fun...enjoy chatting haha but haha u wont noe wat we gossip haha not gossip la too old to gossip its actually talking and sharing session haha imwillbeherealwayswaitingsryicantforgetabtitireallimissudounoeperhapsudunnoebutinoeuarebusywifsch dntworkandworkingoutsidehaiziworryforuduntiredurselfiwillworryandfeelsaddecryedthesefewdayunoewhy becosofuijusmissualotumaythinki'msillyyesiambecosumakemisillybutitisnturfaulthaiziamdeelplyinlovejustat udunnoehaizwishtoletunoebutijusdarenotwishuwereherewifmiimissthememoryihavewifuhopeitwouldntstophere
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:12 PM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
holiday le...finally u can rest haha but gt to study..hmm teacher's day celebration in sch was quite ok...the program was interesting...i mean the concert onli the ace workout was funny...we did abit haha...then went back to class party but our form and co-form no come class both busy...so it was like so boring man...concert all performance was ok some was funny mr yeo de singing was like hmm ok not bad...heard he gt scolded by LLL becos he continue draging the time and letting ppl go off...haha ke lian..yesterday...gt up at 6.30 accomapany my mother go market help her take all the heavy stuff it was dam heavy lox...haiz... no choice..then eat le go find sjab friends play soccer...from morning play until afternoon haha it was so funny...we play until ppl gt injured...we played even when the floor gt glass but i and another guy was lucky where i fall there is no glass piece where he slide there is also no glass piece not liek joaan haha stupid girl sit down and her palm gt cut...by small glass pieces...first game and i score my first goal as a striker haha....yeah..gt improvement haha...but i still think quite lousy i still like defending better haha...was happy in the begining until when i recieve a sms i gt confuse which to choose in the end i choose to go for my Adult First Aid exam..and give up the opportunity to work...haha need money no money la...wanna work but gt no lobang...today woke up at 7 to help my mother wif her in carrying the food down stair for the teacher day celebration for their exercise teacher...my hand is so tired...then come home read my first aid book revise abit...i read up until almost all accept for the stretcher part...then went to meet sherlene,bao chuan and samuel, sherlene's father drive us to hq..then went fro exam it was very hard...in fact it is dam easy jus like bfa lox...it like dun study can also pass haha...then i went to find my ez-link card drop in the bus no.27 yesterday i was too careless lucky someone brought it back to hougang inter lucky i dun need to go changi to collect haha...at last i found then i went home rest le...was so tired..head aching now... i'mluckytohaveubymysideudidntsiammiandustillcontinuetreatingmigdijushopingtatthereisstill chancesasidunwishtogiveupijuslikeusomuchiwannaseeuhappyandnotsadialsodunwannaseeutired urselfbecosofworkinghahaijuswannaletunoetaticaresomuchabtuwateverudoijushopeuarehappy andenjoyingurselfhavingtorecieveursmseverydayi'malreadyhappyyesterdayufirsttimewishmigd luckinmyafaexamifeltsohappyhahaidunaskformorehopetoseeuthesefewdaysimissualotijusmissu thinkingofualwaysitmakesmydayhappywhenithinkofuhopeibrightenurdaytoo