hmm long time no blog hmm busy wif exam hopefully it all goes quite ok hmm busy busy busy am i realli busy i dunnoe haha slack here slack there hmm no work no money i'm broke then u will say go take money from parent haiz...i jus felt i wanna be independent but apart from this reason is also becos money not enough they have to pay this pay tat bills here bills there still gt renovation of my ah ma hse haiz i jus dun wish to bother them earn my own and spent it its stuff but i will endure haiz...shall blog abt yesterday haiz...yesterday was my father's bdae haiz...shld be a happy day cos i always wish tat my family could stay together eat and have fun chat and laugh like others but haiz...why i dun feel excited why i dun felt happy lots of why jus no ans...parent dotes my sis and bro haiz...not tat they dun dote mi they do but i guess not as much as they do to my sis and bro u will say i jealous am i dunnoe i jus felt this way...nd its always i felt i shldnt belong here why when ever things happen they push the blame on mi i rem when i was in pri sch there was once my mother left the hse and they all say tat its my fault and i cause my mother to leave haiz...from pri sch till now i nv felt happy i felt so tired of wearing a mask pretending to be happy when i'm not haiz...wat to do they are still my family...i always hid in one corner and cry out alone thinking why why haiz yesterday every thing was quite ok but still some unhappy stuff wat ever i do or say they dun support and give mi face haiz felt like i am a disgrace to them wat i'm interested in like soccer they dun like mi to do tat and they nv supported mi in wat ever i do in my cca or my studys haiz i cried and cried until both eyes wear red they didnt noe they didnt felt as may eb they didnt care haiz i went to bed early had a gd slp now i felt much better how i wish one day every thing will change to a better may eb after i leave this hse bah haiz...waiting to grow up...buti wanna thx some one who is always by myside when i'm sad and trouble thx alot haiz shall not talk abt it shall blog again haha busy watch video smile pasta a chinese idol show its nice...
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