Days has pass...christmas is bear jus a few days ...haiz...how to spent christmas...dunnoe haiz...how i wish u arent so busy hmm i miss u so much..do u noe tat...haiz...christmas...haiz...if there much time how gd it will be...wish to spent more time wif u...but nvm i nv blame u...i believe in u...hmm both of us are busy wif our stuff will there be time...there's lots of thing i wish i could talk to u...how i wish we could have fun...i guess u and i haven be able to smile and be happy...if i could share ur burden how gd will it be...wish tat u wont be so stress and tired...smile...i guess its hard but i hope u would stay happy....sry to add more trouble and make u more stress haiz....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
5:39 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
haiz...life isnt life any more...haiz...jus one mistake and its all gone...my freedom...the trust...haiz...things are going wrong haiz...how i wish these things didnt happen...changing job soon...started to like the job but have to change no choice haiz...i gonna wait for another 4 years...haiz..wad am i going to do u dun give mi chance to change over...and let u trust mi again...i realise my mistake haiz...there jus some things realli unfair and i'm not happy abt but wad can i do i talk back kanna beaten haiz...and u always say sis this sis tat i'm me and she is she i cannot be as perfect as her...haiz...my sorrows who noes may be he noes how i wish...dear wad can i do how...haiz...how i wish i gt more time haiz....i dun blame but i blame myself haiz...its not ur fault either haiz...say so much also no use u wont see one de haiz....how long can i endure i dunnoe...i may collapse one day haiz...hope i am strong as i think haiz....life sux now....realli sux...god pls help mi...lighten my suffering i noe my mistake haiz...or may be i do not desever to be help...oh lord bless mi bless him too thx bless my life.....