back on blogging update abt my life.....haiz...family problem...forever...pretty sad those days...sry to let u worry le...hmmm i noe i wasnt myself those days couldnt help it...didnt noe how to and end up crying in front of u when i told myself not to cry but i couldnt help it when it came to my mind it jus tears...ever time i cry u hug mi...i felt so confortable and luv...life gets better its jus like a roller coaster haiz...work work work been working starting to feel bored liao afetr o til now haven been playing lor...haiz...now mth end le...so poor no money haiz...must wait till 4/5 then gt money ahha gt to bear wif it a few days... hmm busy tats how we are hmmm hopefully we be more free next time....jus have to keep waiting for u when i'm free u are busy when u free i'm busy working...haha funny but nvm hmmm life jus so boring hope there will be more...i gonna have fun next week a break time for myself ahha gonna ride bicycle...watch sun set and sun rise wif u haha hope we can haha cant wait to play i gt lots of things to do before i start sch haha everybody starts sch le....left mi...hmm last fri....went to had steamboat wif yong wen,kai xiang,hui min, wayne, ben and bowl to celebrate bowl's birthday...haha afetr steamboat we went playing bowling haha hmmm tat day bowling sucks cos didnt play well becos of my hand de injury ahha and the luck too haha...hmm it was so fun...but the next day gt work in morning i was like so tired at work ahha shall update another time le....hmmm ming wei i update liao hor haha...hmmm felt i lost touch wif sjab le....still struggling wif decision and log list aarrhh....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:30 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
back to post again...haiz...wasnt very hapy these few days...things happen...haiz...mon gt scolded by her...haiz...was upset...i jus dunnoe how to speak dunnoe wat to say....mon he came to accompany mi eat dinner...he came fetching mi from work....on the way back to hougang....told him abt my problems...haiz...then half way i kept quiet....tears came rolling out it jus kept rolling....i realli couldnt stand i was realli upset abt her....i cried badly....haiz...went to eat pepperlunch had a full dinner long time no eat so well le...then i went home on the bus i took pics...nothing to do...haiz...i told him i'm gonna hide myself tml...he sms mi but i slp liao he said nope i'm not gonna hide...he will come fetch mi then he said if i wan go any where he will pei wo....in the morning of tue...i reply him...telling him he dun need to come but he said he will come fetch mi jiu shi le....he said he cannot put down his heart...he came we went to amk to return his vcd then went buying stuff at ntuc xtra haha....wed...not working...in the morning she start scolding again...haiz...not onli mi and also to my father haiz....i felt realli sad...lots of stuff i jus couldnt stand...she from 10+ scold until11+ wah long breath arh....haiz...haiz...she said this family gonna be separate....haiz...let it be bah...perhaps it has already been broken le....haiz...i jus dun understand...then after go his hse...suppose to go in the morning at 11 but becos of her i told him i wun be so early sumthing happen at home then he reply asking mi wat happen i didnt tell him onli told him when i reachign then sms him then at his hse he ask mi wat happen didnt wan to tell him cos i noe i will cry...but then i told him he went to do stuff i lie there closing my eyes wif tears he jus kept looking at mi till i open my eyes and it was full of tears...haiz...i tears again and he wipe away my tears...but i continue crying in his comfort hug....i jus keep crying i realli couldnt bear wif it le...then he wipe my tears away and he made mi smile...then later the noon we went to play bowling and i have a striaght XXX haha pro rite haha i win him....haha four rounds first round was training from second onwards the competition begins haha 2nd round i won again then 3rd round he won and the final round i won haha...champion ahha...then went to play bball wif him and our friends...actually didnt wan to go....he ask mi go i said nvm lar u go play...then he ask mi where i go i told him i go home...he turn and tell mi no i must go he said i told him nvm i go home he didnt let mi go as...he noes tat i wont go home i will go hide myself...so i went...we had fun haha i was like so...dunnoe how to desribe lousy in bball but still can manage to have a fews tai kou de shoots 3 fen haha its jus tai kou haha....back home....haiz...its mi alone wif my parents...haiz....nd tats my life...haiz...feeling so unhappy haiz....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:55 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
back to post again...wanted to post the day before but the couldnt get in to the page ...nvm Fri....hmm had funat mediacorp....we st john zone 10 went to mediacorp for a programme call music in the air in chinese it is call yin yue ge dou zhang....haha we took pics...saw cai ming you he was gd looking and handsome....we also saw wang jian fu,su zhi cheng, four ppl from xiao yuan superstar....hmmm ll the recording ended at 11+...so went home late wanted to wait fro bus but there seems to be no bus so we took a cab home....a maxi one the driver was gd each ppl 7 dollar to our home from hq wah...there was 7 of us...so i send most home then i was the last third to drop the taxi then edmund and mindy was the last one haha....sat...bored at home...afternoon go kai hse pei him....see him play mahjong i was dam pro haha no la not pro jus luck onli i play one round i win...i help my bro play one round i also win haha was tat pro or luck haha....hmmm the rest of the rounds i was like going to fall asleep he continue to play...nvm...then go grap a bite then he ask mi accompany him go amk to return vcd so i went at tat time i was thinking abt the same problem...i felt tat i was very bad say dun wanna force him but still keep asking him how how...haiz...i quiet down on the way to amk and all alongi was quiet and didnt smile...he noes when to make mi smile and hold my hand he said he was going i told him abt wat i was thinking and i said sorry to him....he say nahz...until at nite...haiz...he sms mi telling die lar...yong jus call him then i ask him why wat happen...he told me he today no go work plus tml he need work early so i ask him go work lor....then he said he dun wanna mi unhappy and sad then if he no work he no money then next week onli work two days he say how to choose so i told him no need to choose go work he ask mi why i said tat i told him work important plus he gt no money...then he said he felt bad agree to go le in the end nv go....then i didnt reply him le...felt realli very sad but i didnt blame him perhaps its jus fate....i jus felt so sad didnt noe why...my heart jus felt pain...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:26 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
tue hmmm nothing happen...as usual working working then go home....and u came waiting for mi at my hse de bus stop...was actually unhappy but when i see u it all flys alway when i see u i smiled....wed...wake up early go temple pray then aunty lopang mi to work since its shun lu haha...haiz...gt scolded by boss saying we nv stock up and the place was dirty haiz...but nvm...i will jia you...hmmm was realli not happy when u send the four letter words through the phone i noe u not scolding mi but i realli dun like it nvm there goes wed....gotten my pay finally....recieve wei's msg asking to go church on sun...thinking shld i hmm then i ask him to go wif mi he didnt confirm he said if it isnt pure he will leave this words make mi think alot haiz... then he ask mi to go his church tml nite hmmm i hesite awhile then i agree to go....thu not working off...went to meet him then had fun....went to amk to return vcd then we went to eat kfc which make mi so full and didnt eat any thing the rest of the day....he talk to mi abt church and he said alot which make mi think alot thinking or may be i shldnt ask him to go cos i noe he will feel very de unwell at the same time i wish he could go wif mi...i think alot and didnt talk and smile he came asking mi but i didnt say any thing then he make mi laugh and i throw those problems back...hmmm then we went ps watching movie TMNT it was funny then went looking for my shoe but dun have my size so sad....then we went shopping till 7 then we took bus to his church on the way i kept thinking was afraid but wif him by myside those afraid was gone when i enter the church and when the service started i suddenly felt like i'm back to the past when i went to my old church its like it brought mi back to the old days...how nice it was....thx alot it ended late but its ok i enjoy myself alot....hmmm perhaps going another time again if he ask mi to go bah haha...it realli gave mi a different feeling which i dunnoe how to descibe....hmmm then he accomapany mi take bus...he wanted to send mi home but i told him to go home early rest eraly can see him very tired...hoping he will take care more...he jus seems to be very tired all the time....haiyo worry for him...on the way home i felt very happy to be wif him...reach home kanna nag...nvm use to it liao haha...shall stop here le...shall blog again abt today....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:52 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
in the morning of monday the 2nd of april i had a dream.....i dream of u then when i awka by sms it was u i replied u and i was thinking i am still in dream or is it real start morning wif blues...gt up 4+ get ready to go for work pass by ur hse after placing the cd as i walk pass i wanted to peep into ur room in the end i did not i look through ur window and it was dark i knew u were slping well and in ur dreams didnt noe why but when i left i felt like cying is it becos i miss u alot or am i weird off to work was slightly late for work but nvm felt moody lots of mistake too haiz...i forgotten to punch my card again so forgetful i told my colleague saying i'm old le she said not i'm old is becos i'm thinking of him was tat true perhaps its true bah....haiz.....still the same question will there be time? i jus dunnnoe i hope the ans isYES...whose fault? our fault? ur fault? my fault? its jus no bodys fault working today again but i'm hoping to see u after work...will u come i dare not think so much le off to work....