Back to blogging again…haiz..felt so sian so bored…haiz…actually I have done typing my update but becos of a net work problem I have to retype haiz…felt like a tired soul…or even an empty soul..haiz…life is really up and downs for mi….have been crying and tearing these two weeks…I couldn’t stand….he told mi not to think but I jus couldn’t I told myself not to bother abt it le but it jus keep disturbing mi…haiz…whatever I say they jus dun believe then when I’m lying they believe…haiz…wats wrong….i jus dun understand at all why ppl family and be peaceful and happy but look at my its horrible…haiz…the fact is tat once u lose their faith and trust it means gone case…why ur freedom is gone….hai…every one make mistakes so do they but why no matter wat we always have to suffer…haiz…I counldnt stand after every tired day everybody long to go back to their home but to mi I dun felt like coming home always coming home wif a heavy heart…hate it every time have to face her how I wish I could leave but I jus cant haiz…no money no support every thing no…now wherever I go I have to tell them if I’m coming home for dinner as he said I must still call her and tell her so I try…. I told her I’m nto coming hoem for dinner and she said u dun need to tell mi I dun cook ur dinner any more we eat simple tats wat she said but he didn’t hear wat she say when he ask mi did I tell her I say I did and he scolded mi for telling her late and wheather I say or not saying is till get scolding…why…haiz…jus cant stand correct also scold wrong also scold really felt really depress…dunnoe wat to do but someone told mi to endure but how long do I have to endure foever?? Haiz…can life be better…hmm I dunnoe gt lots to say…but jus dunnoe how haiz…no oen cares now haiz….depression I’m on my way le haiz… dunnoe felt really tired….i really thx god for letting mi found someone who really cares and understand mi and also believe in mi….tat some one who is always never fail to be beside mi when I’m down…I thx him and god