Friday, April 25, 2008
hmm i wanna explox thigns out ....seriously i'm onli a little girl nto say little but jus a small young girl...but boss ... wan mi to cook like a man...ok trying...wan mi to cope things fast trying push mi to the extend of 1 person doing the orders when there two more colleague working today...teach mi i try i try seriously i'm trying to cope things fast realli u must give mi time ma pls time... hmm no scolding but jus hush words or i cant rem but i realli trying my best...say i nv use strength so i use strength but in the end i spash the water at them hehe...push push push he push mi but its realli tough sia i'm strong outside but inside i'm not tat strong and i'm weak in health haiz... waiting for 25th july to come...hope there gd news no bad news....ok back to today... he push mi...its a gd thing...haiz... i realli trying my best i'm a girl hello...reallli haiz...i'm trying to cop and at the same time i was trying to hold back my tears...i noe this is jus a beginning onli hai...i try i try pls pls pls give mi time i will cook like a man i'll be wonderwomen...but all i need is time to learn all and time haiz...now all i have is to endure endure....arh......this is realli a hard time lor....pls haiz....ok time to destress....more tough path coming soon....all i need is endurance...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
10:07 AM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
hmm decided to blog haha yeah net work can use liao hmm today nto a gd day i gt lots of injury lor...first i cut my finger then i gt my finger nail injured and its abit numb then i burn my hand then i gt my leg a blue black....lotys of injury today but thx god they are all minor one....hmm firstly result from pushing my appointment forward is a fail i cant due to some reason given by NHC...haiz... nvm i shall see how...bored....going to slp soon sian....ok off to bed
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
SOH JINGJIE
aka JJ
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:56 AM
Monday, April 14, 2008
hmm sch was still ok learn how to make short pastry or can also call it short crust or sweet paste haha hmm pastry can be fun but also realli difficult hmm then goes english lesson...still ok...hmm peter ask mi why am i always smsing hmm why cant i sms hmm then he says to others tat i at work also sms then say even when boss face not gd i also still sms haiz...why hmm i keep thinking abt this problem...haiz...i seriously afraid but i not realli afraid of hard work at the new place it is can my health take it the stress work there how ever i explain no one understand onli my bf....i'll be facing it alone....i noe i gt him but i dun wish him to worry and wat he said was rite if any thing happen to mi my parent will blame him so i dun wish him to have any trouble but wat can i do....these few days realli feel unwell but no one noes say also no use no one listen no one understand...haiz...hmm decided to ask to push the appointment earlier...hopefully is may or june haiz....can any one tell mi wat shld i do....haiz...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:33 AM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
my family
mi & grand ma
daddy, bro & mi
mi
favourite toy won by darlin 
who is this baby
me again
me once again
mi again...haha
mi at kukup trip
mi & darlin
my birthday cake
darlin & mi
once again
mi
senior & officer
nco, senior & offcier
best classmates
best friends
shatec classmates
footdrill com training in sch
footdrill com 2006 team
sjab family
Zhao neng, Me & Theng boon
nursings....haha these are all my memory...i miss all
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:04 AM
hmm kanna miss something out of my life....miss having fun wif darlin....miss going out wif darlin most of the time to enjoy like watching movie shop and play games....i miss those days seriously... so sad....hmm i miss sjab too hmm guess i'm so far away from sjab le...but i gonna go back this sat...hmm i'm so happy tat i gt time to go back this coming sat....but i guess will not be a gd day.... hmm i realli miss having fun...miss my darlin but even wif every day meeting him i felt missing something but i jus dunnoe wat....hmm but I MISS U DARLIN... hmmm work work work i jus wish i gt more time haiz...life is being under control by ppl freedom will there be freedom..hmm guess must wait for another 2-3 years but hmm nvm....hmm why my appointment is so far away...july haiz...i'm so afraid...serious i'm afraid tat i collapse.... hmm lots of reasons...feel like getting weaker but through ppls eye they think i'm strong hmm no they think i must be strong but its seriously hard...i wanna jus be a baby under some one care and love... hmm i will stay strong and take care of myself....
count down hmm 26 more days to leaving marche...its so far...
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:57 AM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
hmm...seriously is no mood in sch...cos i misses some one...much hmm nvm...go sch...lesson early in the mornign was tired but lesson was abt public speaking lor next week must find oen topic wat should i say...dunnoe can i make it...haiz...teacer was gd this course tutor is gd haha hmm then there was at least 3 hrs of break to next lesson jus like spilt shift but its split lesson....tired by it then went rushing down to dhoby ghaut to meet him...freaking miss him but dunnoe he miss mi ma haha meet him eat hotdog and buy drink and then went back to 7 /11 but cup noodles eat haha and at at the indulge haha boss ask mi wan work tonite i treat u eat better food i laugh ahah cos i knew he will ask tat haha...then went home cos he gt to work but didnt vear leaving him haha nvm will vear wif it...hmm didnt realli feel happy lots to things today shall not mention so much hmm or this post will be extremly long hmm why is my mother so not happy wif mi always haiz... nvm
To my dearest darlin....i here by make this promise to u...I PROMISE TO WAIT FOR U DURING UR ARMY DAYS I PROMISE AND I TRUST AND I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT
To shafeeqah....my dearest gf....haha cheer up there always up and downs in life k dun bother abt him...those freaking ppl haha u noe who i mean...they are evil and cruel why i also dunnoe haha jus be urself k life gonna be gd cos mon tue i meeting u in sch yeah...must always look forward k.... hey u are not lonely k u gt mi....gt boo...gt lots of caring friends exculding those ppl u noe who i mean hmm cheer up....smile k then u look great
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:02 AM
Monday, April 07, 2008
haiz...no mood these few days...not becos of work not becos of sch but becos of wat...i dunnoe too feeling no life...basiclly everyday is jus like ake up work or sch onli 1 day outing haiz...nvm...feel so moodless how i wish how i wish he dun need to work tml...haiz....
missing u realli do u noe tat why....i wanna meet u today but u doesnt seems like u miss mi doesnt seems to have the urge to meet mi....tml another day i cant meet u again...haiz...hate this its realli cruel... :(
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:42 AM