hmm today in a mood to blog but lots of unhappy stuff...feel so stress not onli 1 thng but many things make mi stress....firstly abt this guy....he did not go sch these few days...and his teacher called his parent up and said he did not go sch and his mother is super angry and ng and scold him then his mother knew i was wif him came talking to mi over the phone...asking mi do i noe he has not been going sch these three days...i said NO but actually iknew abt it jus has to act then his mother go nagging over to misaying his has been not a gd boy has change bad lately so i jus go erm...erm...and his mother said tat some thing tat make mi feel upset and trouble abt....she said he has been meeting mi and she said we do not need to meet every day cos his been meeting mi and sending mi home but actually he does realli bah hmm dunnoe nvm then his mother also added something saying as a friend of him i shld help him and encourage him to go sch on ewvery day and most of the time be puncture....so i jus keep going erm...erm...ya ...so and so.... a reply to his mother...hmm i has been asking him to go sch and jus he always slping and overslp wat can i do....i do encourage him and most of the time we meet can mostly be at nite cos i'm woking tat de onli time i could meet him and hs busy and i'm busy we jus trying to make time for ourself..so why bother us meeting almost everyday...and his already 19 and adult teenage already next year will reach 20 why still bother abt him he will take care of himself but if u bother abt him why dun u give him more money as his allowances his always no money to eat when u quarrel....so why bother so much ... and abt sch his already a adult if will take care of his study if he dun study well and its his own resposnsiblity u dun realli need to talk abt it so much let him be...why not jus let go abit...holding one so tight doesnt do any gd he will still go bad and go against u...haiz... nvm some times i find parent are very troublesome and so naggy....some times i feel irritated....abt my own mother my study she didnt care cos its my own duty to study well if i fail to do so it will be my own fault haiz...almost every day work is tiriong but no one understand colleague say why i feel tired when i off so many days haiz... u all jus not mi unoe wat my health and urs is different...haiz..say so much do nothing sian arh...how i wish i could jus play haiz....freaking stress wif stuff gt inventory to do project to do...work and work and study jus make mi feel so no life...bored of working already...hmm i have thought of work until i finish my course rest for 2 to 3 mths then start working again....i wanna play i dun wanna waste my teenage time.... haiz.. darlin some times i jus miss u so much but i now i have to think abt ur mother and o have to sacrify my time haz... must ren...guess we 1 week meet abt 2-4 days bah...haizz...nvm...i understnd i will try to do tat haiz...writing the above is not trying to blame u or ur mother its jus my reflection....dun bother abt it k muack..luv u darlin...i wanna go park and relax again....
finally met up wif my lovely bf....hmm realli miss him alot....when to eat lunch then went taking a walk...sat there enjoy de wind and it felt so relaxing....if time could slow down how nice it will be...eveery day working and sch missing out something in my life...there seems no fun at all... hmm i miss having fun i wanna bring fun back and i wanna laugh and play my way through my life....i miss sec sch life haha....now all friends are busy...even mi i guess i'm de most busy person haha...darlin...mr lazypig i wanna say sorry to u i noe i have done some thing not rite and u are upsad one cos i noe u care for mi but u jus didnt say out and show out most of the time....i promise u i wont ever do it again muack sorry my dearest pig the most lazy pig in the world haha
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:41 AM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
haiz..it has been three days...haiz...days wif out him is lonely....suddenly i feel so sad...haiz has been sad for 3 days....there seems to be no true friends no friends...its not they drawing away from mi its seems to be i drawing away from them...haiz....go work ...finish work go home alone... haiz darlin not aound today sunday off...rest and thought afternoon can meet him after his camp haiz...but he choose to stay at scout camp then to meet mi haiz...i realli hate it haiz...feeling so sad...tears keep coming out even he ask mi not to cry....haiz...i hate him choosing scout always haiz....they neeed u tats wat u said but i guess truely is u wanted to stay wif ur scout friends there rite...haiz....they need u i also need u u noe....haiz...but u choose stay at camp....haiz....hate u i hate ur scout life.....sob sob......haiz....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:19 AM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
busy wif work... now at work place no customer so decided to blog while my boss not around hmm jus to say hi and bye...bored at work...tat all haha....i miss my darlin...he's busy wif sch and scout hmm i miss my friends too busy wif indivual work and study....ok tats all signing off byebye
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Alawys My Darlin [:
2:41 AM
Friday, July 04, 2008
i have decided to posy this issue on my blog.... haiz...felt i'm so stupid to believe a strangers words....on wed late nite when i was going to take mrt home this guy approah mi and he said he's from china...came here to help the company do things but the person in charge as gone over sea...will be back ytd he wans to borro some money to eat at first i rejected him cos i realli gt no cash....then he said pls and told him he gt card but could nt get money and he said he also felt bad as he is a big guy and here he is begging for money i too silly to actually lend him some money and he said he will call mi the next day to return so i kept believing he will return but the next day he did not call and today i called him he didnt ans ad he off his phone i felt so sad and half angry angry f myself being stupid to lend this china guy money stupid enough to actually believe his words...haiz... dam dam dam stupid..too kind tat i gt bluff bloody hell guy hey u this stupid china guy bluff my money u this bloody hell will get bao yin de wish god punish u will bankcrupt wish god punish u tat u will have no money to eat and u suffer like hell borrow money also no one will give a dam to help u u bloody china guy u idolt u asshole u bloody sucker u son of the bitch irritating guy XXXX you freaking ass hole.......